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Okay, gunna try to post something and get this.. Blog/Form/Journal thingy up.
Spring break is almost up, sadly but then I only have six weeks left of school and I am FREE forever~ ... Well untill I find a job and go off to college. Whoo~
Um.. <W.I.P>? Swear I'll get back to this. Some day.
So, today I am getting ready to head down to intensive care to get checked out on... Wish me luck eh?
I feel like life is rushing past me, and I can't o anything to stop it, and it's scaring me. Last wednesday was my birthday, and today is the one year anniversary of the first loss of a pet.
And yet here I sit, taking a break from WoW for many reasons, some apparent and some I'd rather not say. Things are changing, I know people can feel it.. And for some reason I have become extremely tired, and depressed and very easily angered.
To my friends, I'm sorry if I've been a pain in the ass and if I've been a jerk.. Some times I can't see or consider what I am doing till the repercussions after..
And Sinica, I am sorry for all the trouble I've caused you, but I will still be behind your back doing my best to help you out.
I know it's been a long ass time since I posted on this thing, but some times it just gets away and slips my mind. I swear I'll try to post more, when I am free. Which will be more than usual seeing how I am taking (trying to) a break from World of Warcraft.
And to all my friends, if you need anything. Just ask, and I will do my best to help out, no matter what it may be.
- Mood:
drained
So far, life is going alright, been some rockey areas and what not. And things are going find with my friends at school, etc, etc..
Last night I watched the movie American Beauty, and the ending made me think about my own life.. And how at times how ungrateful I am to have, what I have at times. A loving family, good friends in which I know I can fall back on during hard times, and a good life.
I always say thank you to things I receive, so this is a big thank you to all that have helped me through hard times.
Thank you, so very very much. I don't know where I would be with out you guys. <3
And Loki, thanks again. And I hope everything is going wonderful for you. <3
Time to do some homework. -scurries off- I promise I'll post more.. >_> I swear!
School has started, and am trying to keep everything up and to standards. Wearing me out x_x
Halo 3, thats all I am gunna say.
Been hanging out with friends, and talking to others. But the other day, my friend Sinica made my day with a small text message. Thank you Sinica.
Sooo... Last night in Chaoti chat, we played a ver y fun game of buttsex with the aplabet! XD More on this later
Went and saw Ratitoutie... I don't care if its spelt right or not >_>, but besides that it was pretty good, I had my doubts but found my self almost choking on my drink at times. Went with Loki and Aya... Was great to see them again, and man does time fly when your having fun.
We got out around... 6 pm, talked... waited... talked some more, then went over to a Carl's Jr. Sat and talked and omg ATE! there, then headed over to Bed Bath and Beyond. Then we went our seperate ways.... T_T
God damn I need to get my licence. Get a car.. Get a job, then I can hang out with those two.. Like alot.
As for my life.. FUCK IT, I say... Still sucks, I try not to cry when I think about it at night.. And man was it hard the other day.. Saw a picture of my sisters graduation, and asked my self. "Will I ever make it there...?" And I still ask my self that question every night... x_o
And finally... a quote I found very true from my game Overlord. "The good, they have no idea how close to evil they truely are..." Damnnn... Says alot, goes deep. Makes ya think about your self.. I for one found my self on both sides.. >_> yeah.. I like seeing others in pain at times.
Aight, I'm off to bed now.
Oh, hello life. thank you for rearing your ugly head again and showing me whats really reality.
So today, I'm hanging out with my friend Reli (not his real name of course) and he was watching me play his Tenchu Z game. then he asks me..
Reli: Hey, Zak. Where are you going to school for next year?
Me:... Umm, I don't really know.. I haven't thought much about it. Heh..
Reli: Well, you should decide soon ya? Schools starting up soon again.
Me: Yeah... I don't know -sighs- I'll talk about it with my folks.
Yup... I am pretty much fucked.. I got kicked out of my school last year because I had an F in english and Bio.. Yet my councilor said I could make it up with Summer School, and next year.. Then I get a fucking letter saying I can't go back because they won't accept me.
That was all some time ago.. About three weeks into summer, I about cried my eyes out.. Then wished the world would just leave me alone. It did, for some time..
I was left alone in the ignorance of summer. Till today, and now I am brooding over what to do. My life is royaly fucked right now, and I don't know what to do.. Now please excuse me while I dig out whats left of my life, and live the rest of my summer.
I know the title seems like I am angry. But really, I am happeh!
Saw Transformers last night, fuck that was amazing.... Been hangin with the cousins and bout to head up to my cabin tomorrow. -snickers- Umm... What else, my uncle got married... My WoW subscription is on hold DAMN CREDIT CARDS!!! >_>;
-scratches head- .... <3 Lokitan! ^_^
Well first, I only have five days left of summer school! ^____^ ... but... There is a draw back to it, which I don't realleh wanna talk bout ya? Kies good.
I gots meh a Xbox 360 (yay me!) Oh and yes, my background is now a Ambercrombie & Finch like thingy... >.>;; It was Loki's fault. -hides-
What else.. What else.... Umm.. Come back to me on that one. Bai bai!
Wow, two days ago, on WoW. Chaoti had a massive RP, and it was amazing... It made my adrenalin pump and kept me up later than I should of been. We need to do that again -nodnod-
My character is engaged to his loved one, finally. They are soo cute <3 Lokitan
Nothing is going wrong at school, no bomb threats or anything so its all good.. Just four more weeks of school YAY!
Oh and Sunday I got to film myself in bellbottoms for a project in US History which I hop our video got a A on.. Heh..
- Music:End Of Days ~ VNV Nation
So it was nearing the end of my second period class. And over the intercom someone asks for my principal. Then a few moments later, as I am reading To Build a Fire, our fire alarm system goes off.
Awwww, says everyone in my class, same with me. Fire drills are teh sux at Heritage, everyone is walking out all Yay a freaking fire drill, I get to miss a period. Well we were all wrong...
As we pass the fire safety area, our teaches scream at us. "Get back against the fence!" So we do, then they yell "GET INTO THE PARKING LOT!!" we are all confused at what is going on so we head to the top of our lot. Few moments go by and my friends and I are all joking around.
(I had a bad feeling that something bad was going to happen today when I got to school, there was a massive crow just standing near out main entrance and not moving. It would fly to a spot just a few feet from where it once was. So yeah...) I'm talking with all my friends when I hear a teacher say. "We have a bomb threat, thats why we are all out here..."
That is one thing I didn't want to hear... After so many school around Heritage already had bomb threats and lock downs. A few more minuets pass by, and the teaches and students are worried. I was worried for my friends and my sister. "What if there is really a bomb?" I asked my self, Peoples parents where comming to pick them up and leaving.
The just as third ended the teachers told us to head back into the school, that it was all clear. Fuck no I said, one I didn't want to go back, and two they couldn't have searched the school in one class period. (which aren't that long mind you) People were saying that a bomb squad was there, I saw no bomb squad van. There where two TWO fucking police officers there, thats it. TWO FREAKING POLICE OFFICERS! CAN NOT SEARCH A GIANT BUILDING IN A HALF AN HOUR! Its impossible! Heritage has too many hiding spots for a bomb... I was scared to go back in.
But I did, went back to my second period class so the teachers could get a head count. Then my principal comes on the intercom saying we are going to continue classes. Umm hell no, my parents where already called and I was on my way home..
I just hope that nothing happens while I am away. I want my friends to come home safe and not be hurt....
And that was my day right there...
Watched Fun With Dick And Jane, Dawn Of The Dead, and Silent hill.
FWD&J Was hilarious, like most of Jim Caries' movies.
Dawn Of The Dead.... Good movie, but wow the people were stupid in it.. I mean really, no one would be like that.. Or would they...? o_O I missed some of the movie due to the fact of going to Dairy Queen and getting a awesome blizzard. but one lady in the movie... >.< "NOT MY DOG CHIP! QQ" Me: Oh for the love of... ARE YOU KIDDING ME? SHUT THAT DAMN DOG UP! AND THE LADY!" Made that movie stupid... But I thought playing a zombie in a movie would be fucking awsome XD (Oh and I would never shoot a dog in my life.. I said that also >.>))
And FINALLY!
Silent Hill. Wow, that movie was amazing. Not a jump out of your chair, scream fest. But very on edge jumpy moments. If you ever played the games (I have only played one GO ME! ^_^) Then you will know what.. Well no well, yeah you will understand it. ending had me confused till Sinnies explained it to me ^_^ Twas a good movie. Now why can't they make movies from Video Games like that? Resident Evil? Hated it... Blood Raine, horrible... ect ect.
On a side note, I'm a bit worried and whatnot. I found out today my sisters boy friend dumped her. And man... -sighs- I love my sister, and seeing her upset like this makes me upset also. Yeah, I'm a soft hearted person. So what? i cry, makes me feel better and relieves stress. FUCK YOU PEOPLE WHO SAY CRYING IS CHILDISH!..
(May the souls of the faithfuly departed rest in peace. A moment of silence for those who lost their lives at Virginia Tech.)
I don't know, I feel kinda weird, I've been really tired the past few days. And I don't know... I feel less productive.
And today is 4/20, yay... Go fuck your brains up more you pot smokers... The eight year anaversity of Colombine and what happened.. And naw, I'll leave that one out for that fucker should still be burned alive in hell... Asshat that started WWII if your wondering.
Blasphemy! Yeah, some mormon ass yelled that at me today and got all pissed off. Yeah... I was ranting on about religion (And do not take this the wrong way, for those of you people out there who are religious) I have freedom of speech don't I? I don't believe in a heaven nor hell, I could be wrong. I could be right, but I still think the mormon religion is a strange one. Men can have as many wives as they want? Doesn't that defeat the purpose of marriage? I'm pretty sure it says between ONE man and ONE woman....
Ehh what ever....
Yes, I haven't posted in this thing for some time. For a few reasons, One: I don't know what to post on. Two: I forget about it >.< Three: I'll come back to you on that one.
BUT! After a talk with Argent and Sinica I found, why does there have to be a reason for a entry? There doesn't! Its my journal, no one elses. Sure people can read it, but would they really give a fuck? I don't think so, or I hope not.
Things have been weird around here, here as in my house and my life. My dreams for one are mixed and I don't understand them. And some times forget them, it confuses me, also things with a certian day a importan day in my sisters life might be going to hell. Yes prom is comming up, and I swear to god if it snows and is cancled. That day will be hell on earth for me.. I will WILL lock my self in my own room to escape her wrath, thats how worried I am.
Everyone knows how fucking expensive prom is and I for one think its a over rated scam stores use to jack up their prices to make your wallet plead you to stop buying shit. Or your credit / debit card. 260 dollars for a dress that looked as if the designer gave it to a small child and said Have fun! I COULD DO THAT! Maybe...
I have bested God of War 2 and can't wait for God of War 3. Yes there is another one comming out ^^ -squee- I just hope it is awsome like the others, which it probably will be.
I am sick of the fucking snow, its spring time! April showers bring may flowers right? Fuckign wrong for Colorado, its April snow storms bring death to those fucking flowers. I'm scared what our summer might be like. "Today it will snow.... Alot." Yeah well you know what, fuck you weather system. And fuck you colorado weather... AND SCREW YOU PEOPLE WHO THINK YOU CAN TELL THE DAMN WEATHER! You say there is a 100% chance there will be more than there will be 15' of snow, school would be cancled and so would prom. I wake up the next morning to find a cloud filled sky, dark morning and no snow. WOW this isn't the first time our Dopliar 3000.15981or what ever hasn't disappointed me....
There is my story and my rant, have fun reading it ^^ Laters
- Location:That one place I mentioned in my rant. Yup ^_^
- Music:Streetlight Manifesto - Keasbey Night - Keasbey Night
Made me think, how many times have I done that before? Daydreamed, and somthing happened that I thought was real but really wasn't? Dreams that I have had, that feel so real, but aren't? Are they really dreams? Were they? Or am I just thinking too hard?
Spring break is almost over and what comes along...? Why fucking snow, gah! I mean come on!
Colorado your weather sucks... I hate it. Your nice and sunny one day. Then pure evil and snowy the next...
A energy drink that you have to be 18+ to buy (wtf eh?) well I drank one and just wanted to see what others had to say about energy drinks.
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 3
Do you drink teh energy drinks?
1 (33.3%)God of War 2 will be comming in the mail soon ^^, can't wait to play that bad ass game. And yes I still play the first one. Also I will be getting my Guitar Hero 2 back. \m/ >.< \m/
TMNT, was a good movie. Kinda short, and I predicted what was going to happen. (Go me?) But it was still a good movie. Revived my old childhood memories of those toys and cartoon shows. What? They still have a cartoon show?! >.>
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